so, finally--!!finally!! i'll be able to achieve one of my dreams.
I got my visa ready.
I got enough funds to survive the whole trip.
I'm almost done with my itinerary...
...so why do i feel like i want to drown?
why do i feel so inconsolably sad ?
the supposed happiest weeks of my year have brought nothing but guilt because there's not an ounce of rainbows and sunshine in my heart. I feel like my heart is breaking over and over again and I just want this pain to end. Funny thing is, I AM NOT IN LOVE. I'm not in this unrequited love shit nor have I been hurt by a boy before. Where is this pain coming from?Who hurt me? I want this to stop. please just make it stop. take it away or glue it, i don't care. I just don't want to hurt anymore.